Towards the end of holiday week....

Last two days was having fun with 2 buddies and sweet sister!!! Hehe.. It's been long since was crazy like that in Ipoh.... ( in Perlis most of the tyme like that only!!!! ) We shared a lot of stuffs!!!

First was Wednesday.. we went to parade to lepak. Had lunch and that was CRAZEE!! hehe.. Funny at some point of the time... After that, we were just hanging out while one doink looking for baju.. We tagged along everywhere doing whacko stuffs. After that, Kavitha went with her friends for movie dee... the 3 of us hanged at food court and chat and chat... then went back home already. Next was dance class. Not that i can't cope or what, just feeling if its all worth-it for the sacrifices i will be making. I really doubt i would be able to fulfill my promise and to do my very best. At the situation of mine, i could only try to do my best. Thats it.

Yesterday, we went to jusco abt 4 something. Hanged out again and makan makan and lepak lepak. Wanted to watch movie but then all was full there in Jusco!!!! Went to parade. 9.45 movie- Percy Jackson and the lightning thief. While waiting for the movie, we walked walked, leg also aching!!! huhu... The movie was good =) Enjoyed!! But...the cinema was super COLD!!!! huhuhu.... Thanks people!!!! My holidays was awesome this week with all my buddies and the movies... hehe... Just that never managed to finish up assignments.Or study!!!! hehe... There's time.. There's time!!!


No matter how weird life can be, one's feelings is weirder... Especially when people care and are sweet!!! Not to blame me or anyone but that's natural... cannot help it... muahahaha.... But it makes you wonder and think and you are prone to follow what you think. It can never be true most of the time. So, don't fall for it!!!!! So complicated. I myself don't know what i'm crapping about!! Life is unfair at times. It's okie to be selfish but is it bad to want something so badly and end up missing it out of the life. It's not like there are same people with same characters. The world is cruel and not many people out there are nice as it may seem to be. Some sharks are just preying and waiting for the right time. How come the good ones don't deserve a good life???? haha.. FULL OF EMO ALREADY!!!

So complicated when come to think of future and life.. Is it that guys take everything easily just why they seem cool with anything. they don't bother i suppose.. Girls would think about everything from beginning until what what could happen, might happen, this happen means how, that happens means how and the list goes on. It could be so simple but by the time go and travel all around and come back, still the same only.. huhu... Girls are like that.. What to do...

having great time.....

On Valentines Day was thinking what i should do and so on.. Eventually, one old friend called out for a drink. It was two then. We ere supposed to meet few more people it seems. And the whole thing was super awkward!!! hehe.. But 3 of us had fun chatting though. Was not so much of Chatter but okie ler.. To fill time.... And at night brought mom go shopping. I wanted to give a treat to mom and bro, so i took them to pizza hut. Had a nice day in conclusion. So not planned but sweet day.. =)

Yesterday, dad came back home already!! Bought so much stuffs.. WHEEE!!! hehe... And i went out with kiki and nagen( her cousin bro). These ppl real NUTTO!!! hehe... Had great fun with them.. Chatting, laughing and emoing..... watched wolfman--> was terrible!!! SCREAMING MOST OF THE TIME... Then, we went to lotus to watch GOA!!! Damn nice the movie.. It somehow or rather gave me memories... Haiihhhh... Here emoing started lerr....

Chatted on phone with someone. FEw days been chatting with him. I don't know if its right or wrong but for the moment, i don't want to miss the moments being with that person. Just missed the person. Anyways, the was chatting with kiki on phone for more than an hour!! haha.. total crap!!!!

Before that!! SHOBANA BANA's birthday!!! 19 alredy!!! hehe.. so, all i have to say to her is --> dear, there's four more years for us to be really with each other and i want u to be there for me... no matter what... It's like finally i have a sister and someone to bully as my sister.. sorry if at times i say stuffs but, when you're looking at me as a friend, i'm looking at you as my sister... chill yah.. =) love yah loads....

REALIZED

Why is it that when i come to a certain conclusion, there's always something that reverts back to me telling the opposite of what i presume it to be. I eventually learned to hate that person, was it worth-it? Love is something so random and unexpected but for the fact that someone can leave another person by telling what they think it is. There can always be a solution if you want something to happen. If not, it's your decision as well. As for me, i am clear in my thoughts about the past and i don't wish to dwell upon it anymore. I will be there but grow up. Learn that you determine how you live your life. Everything is in your hands. No matter what, my impression on all guys will remain the same.

To me, from what i have observed- love comes from first sight... i repeat... SIGHT!! Which means physical appearance. There are love which blossom from understanding but i bet you can count. The next reason from what someone i know said is love for some is just lust. For the fact that the relationship between guy and a girl is merely about sex and nothing else. How can someone just give themselves just like that to some random guy that you fing "CUTE"/ "HOT".. What would the perception of life be to those people then?? Okie.. You can tell me that it's their life and what do i care how they carry themselves.

To me, i feel its lack of humanity in people. They have lost sense of direction in life. To bring back a person is just impossible. No matter how much you talk to and advise, you're merely irritating character who is KPC!!!! Some can be animals that they treat their mother like source who gives everything and slams words to hurt. I'm not telling that i'm an "angel" myself. But i know what life is meant to be. I'm still searching my purpose of birth. No matter how drifted a can be from reality at times, i never forget my roots and i would never do anything to embarass my parents. Life should be taken seriously while you enjoy. Enjoy the bliss around you. Every little thing can make you smile. You will find life more interesting and worth to live.

Thoughts of mine can just go on and on. I may not behave or act to my age, but there are things that i know those people so called act their age. Why complicate life with age?? to live how one wnats to is an individual freedom. What matters in the end is to be able to manage and handle things around. That's the hardest!!!!! Yet, i'm proud of myself that i now consider myself thinking for my age.. ( even though i don't act like one.. who cares!!!! as long as i'm happy)

memories of life

To think of every happenings daily, sometimes it feels like a dream but yet again when the next day comes, its like you don't know whats happening again. Not that nobody bothers but its either you or people around you. haha..

Friendship is something so sweet that there is no boundaries of love. Feels like feeling the love from home. Someone who cares so dearly. So close yet still blur in my mind. Scared to face the future as anything can happen anytime. Weird yet nobody can deny that.

I miss my mom and dad.... i feel so like want to be back home. for all the fun i missed i want to fulfill it back to my life. how i wish i could avoid many things that had happened in my life never happened. But yet again, where will i learn all my lessons???

the experiences of life are just too meaningful to ignore or forget.. in pain, there are pearls within it. to look back, although it can be very hurting, but somehow, it'll make you smile for the memories.

will try as hard as i can to avoid these happenings. as it is no longer related to me.

APPRECIATE LIFE

Even though days seem to be so dull at times, there are always someone to cheer you up. After all, god is not totally unfair. He definitely gives everyone what they deserve best in life. I'm glad to be close with the friend of mine again... After such apart months. Care don't change but if after this it gets apart, it would hurt even more!!!!

For the fact that i'm closer to all of them now... It feels great but then again there's always the fear.. Just don't know why. I'm eventually having some sense of appreciation in my head.. Am appreciating everything.. And it connects with what Mr Kalai said in Moral class yesterday... Treat others like their lives are going to end soon. Everyone takes people generally for granted that they will always be there. It's time to face the fact of life!!

Exams around the corner and i still don't have the mood to study. HUHU!!!!

NEW YEAR!!!!

Here's new year and off goes 2009!! Great memories with friends, family and loved ones. Just hope everything continues as it is. Hope to have more fun with all people i love!!! You people know who you are!! Thanks for being there when i needed someone with me.. Someone told me its a new year and am supposed to start fresh.. haha.. Don't know hoe it works but lets see how life goes. Am just going to watch it as days past by. Better than to get involved with major stuffs.


During bhajan today, had great message from swami.. - the pain and sufferings we experience are because of our own karma and he cannot do anything about it. he is there for everyone all the time , in happiness, sadness or whatever. Yet, he guides us during our dark moments and gives us great message on how to live life so that we can be nearer to god and experience bliss within out. No matter what, people only think of god during dark moments in life or when they want something, either a promotion, better result or etc.; and god is giver and he only gives those who deserves it. Ask god for happiness and ou will get because he is a loving mother to all and he loves his children a lot!!!


Today bhajan was great and i thank swami for giving me a song =) missed a lot singing in bhajan!! FOR YOU SWAMI!! Met akka all.. Yoga akka, SHALINI AKKA !!! ( its been super long !! miss yah lots ), hema akka ( also very long since i met her ) ... Rami oso!! How grown up she is now!!! hehe.. time flies!!!! She was a small cute girl last i saw her!! haha... And the guys with their fire crackers!!!! cracking my head and ears!!! hehe.. but it was fun!! SASI--->>>>---- ahem... one loose!!!!! hehe... miss him too!!! n RENU!!! =P hehe..
Had fun with those poeple...


Waiting for next year.. oops.. NEXT YEAR events... HHmmmm... lets see how things go on....
=P

discoveries ( PROBABLY )

Christmas was boring!! Did nothing much. Did some homework and watched tv all the while.. huhu.. Apart from that, next day of christmas, ( y'day ) went to racheal's house. Cheryl is all grown up now. big kid d.. =)) hehe.. nice girl. Had nice time there with the sisters and phil. =P he's totally hillarious and cracko!!! its been quite sometime being around whacko ppl!!

Everyone is having issues. Why must growing up be so complicated??? Damn!! Life is school was so much more easier to handle. It is fun to explore but it's getting more and more tough. Probably when young, life was too easy and now we have to eventually learn it the hard way!! hhmm.. Friends all over are now like busy with own lives and we hardly meet. Thats really sad! I miss hanging out with my buddies.. Can't wait 4 levin to be back as well!!!

I wish to know more about life and people. Yet sometimes or most of the times, they are so predictable. In every relationships in lives, i've noticed that everyone takes everything for granted and when it's hard between them, they just burst out! No matter what, nothing would last long even our lives. How hard we try to live simple and down to earth, things just don't seem to be like that. However, everything would just jumble up and create chaos.

Since there's always 2 sides all along, probably no one, NO ONE escapes from the tragic yin and yang/ good and bad/ +ve and -ve and the list would go on and on. Probably everyone should also nourish their soul not just the body.!! People alwayz forget the reason they are here.. It gets much deep when you go in further but some prefer to ignore it and just lead a " normal " life ... Somehow at a certain point, you would end up asking

1) what am i doing here??

2) whats my purpose behind all these...

and the famous one

3) why is it happening to me??? / why must i be the one to experience this???

so, to get those answers, DON"T ASK ME!!!!! hehe

ASK YOURSELF!!

look.... what was i talking about and where it lead me to????? this is why i shouldn't be sitting and staring all the while to the space...