Not to rush

Determining moments in life is not an easy task. However you may have it well-planned, organized or sequenced, it may not just fall into its places as expected.
Who ever said falling in love was easy? You cannot push it through a person and just make it happen. it deals with two hearts. How do you/ would you know what the heart wants? Just because it beats fast, doesn't mean that is the outcome, probably its sending an alarm for danger or some instincts that this is not good.

Why does it have to be stereotyped falling in love? .. I love you... You mean everything to me... I want to make love to you...

Its human nature, I get it. Just that its so sweet in the movies/stories but in reality it gets too tacky. Its difficult to know the true intention behind love. Yeah.. How far can it get to be real love? When you are falling for someone, you should know what you are about to get in to... Maintain a stable mind and tell yourself that she/he's the one... No matter how far it takes you apart, distance would not be a big matter as the love would just be there, well, with technologies of course.

Faith and trust is very important in dealing with any relationship. But if there is no faith in love, just never jump into the conclusions...

Only indulge in something with stability in mind and not rush...

i'm not going to rush or decide right away... no matter how much i hate uncertainty, sometimes it is what gets you to think deeper and look beyond...

Just when it is an interval, another chapter barges in!!

Just when everything goes on in usual pace, with every hectic month of the sem is over, and set to rest mode, here goes the mind and heart twisting and aching in an unexpected manner. When just about to settle down and leave the rest to god to be taken care of, here comes again insecurities and doubts. Why does all happen in this way? 


Words that has been uttered may or may not be, apart from that being a part of critical stage, is it all for good? Hmph.. Thoughts just can't seem to stay put at one place. Many considerations to be made. All i hope is not to jump into any decisions... 


Now i know why time is needed so badly.. 







Dwelling and fear is something not to be anticipated.. 
Yet.. Never do something that might cause you to regret... 
Is it time yet??? 3 years seems to be so fast and just hope it'll turn out to be a joke..




To wanting it so badly is one thing...
To make it really happen is another...
To make it real is what matters...
To see it as real is what fears me most!!

As its Mother's Day, let me put my thought up...

Now that i know how lost would feel,
Fear dwells upon thoughts,
Not that have i taken into granted,
Nor am I blaming the age,
But journey in life does teach,
Who ever denies or live in denial?

Love is always portrayed in her own ways,
Still, how much more can one expect?
Never will one put aside a child will she?
No matter what you're part of her blood and flesh..

Yes Maa,
I might not be the best child of the year,
I might not be able to be an ideal child
I might not be able to keep up my best behaviour at all times
Yet, does not mean i might not have you in my mind and heart...

Happy Mothers' Day..

Lies in life teaches lessons for life!!

        Its not that astonishing to find out someone had just back stabbed you. I would say its still so high school. Yet, yeah it would hurt to finally find out the person you trust, hits your back and turns over. If the friend is that worth-it after all. Well, these few months taught me not to just a person before you really get to know them. I'm glad I've known this now and not when i'm just about to leave this institution. 

Through out my 3 years here, ( yes!! 3 years now) I've been with many many friends and even preferred to be all by myself at times, got along with few juniors, and all these are now memories. I don't know how it happens but almost everyday there is something new in life not only to expect but to venture at times. It definitely depends again at how one looks at it from what perspective. 

Art is something i look up to dearly, be it music, dance, painting, pictures or just a scribbled sky. Glaring at it, brings deep emotions out. Not to be poetic but just love the feeling that stirs from beneath. Especially when going to sea shores with beautiful sky which seems to be painted. 

Silently waves that hits the shore, while birds chirping from the corners of tress by the sea, soft white sand that hand runs through and legs that walks the path of sea shore with wet sand - is what my heart yearns. As it is always known, silence speaks deep into the soul. 

Clouds in life do exist *not like i just figured that out* =P

Sometimes it would be a wish like, ' how nice it would be if life is as simple as it is in movies or fairy tales'. With many many things going on in life, it makes me wonder if whatever decisions i'm making is really worth-it! But to think of it again, how can there be possibly an exact answers for every situations as "the road not taken" does exist in everyone's lives.

To fake life and seem to always make it seem to be alright all the while don't work anymore. How long can a person fake the life they would want to live? Future is something that doesn't come to you in a gold bowl or a silver bowl readily. It takes time to figure out the right thing to do at every particular time.

Wonder if the hidden answers to little questions of life is there somewhere waiting to be gigged up! How do you actually face it and get the answers when you don't have a plan or not even prepared at all?? Seems to be really silly but yeah, if that is what life is all about, then, there's more to explore!

Is it not right to express at all and bottle up feelings even when there are people for you to talk to but its not something worth discussing. No idea, but its just too deep that how long more can a person await and long for dreams in life. Dreams are to be lived not to be just planned and organised. Well, then do dare to dream ( in a tiny hope that it will come true some day ).

Beginning of Semester 3

Seems like everyone is all ready and geared up for this sem even from the very beginning. Its all for good i guess. Well, as for me, I have few resolutions ad well for this new year and sem! Hope to achieve all as its just very few and the ones i really want! So, yeah, am going to keep my fingers crossed.

Classes are good and subjects are even more challenging for this sem. So, shall try very hard not to be blur as usual!! =P

Other than that, everything else is going on good. Love my room which is in ground floor, love my mini alter in room, love that the classes are not that packed, love that i can cut down on walking all the way to the 4th floor!!! And the best would be to have more fun this sem. Hope all plans really turn out well =) Need to enjoy more lahx!! Whats there to be so serious right!?

As for future days, I shall just wait with no expectancy and hopes but to live it!!

p/s: My second minor is MUSIC, and i don't know if that's a good thing or bad but however, I have to welcome it to my life =)