You Got To Do What You Have To Do!!

Recently there are many thoughts crossing by. Some are meant to be yet some are not. We cannot be bothered much about the surrounding all the time when you yourself have to figure out what you are up to.. There are so much things to be done and you have to get going and move on. Things that has happened has to be left because it all happened for a reason and to teach you a lesson. Let things take its way and time. Some day people will know what you are. There is no need to prove yourself to anyone. You are you and only you can decide on how you want your life to be. There are times to listen to others but its your life. You Got To Do What You Have To Do!!

Anyways, when you are blamed that and this and so for, why do you think it happens?? The only thing to do is, look back and reflect. When there is problem, correct yourself and move forward. If you find nothing wrong, then just forget it and still move forward. What if it really bothers you to know if something is really wrong with you. Let me tell you something!! Don't bother.. because people can tell stuffs that are not true and all you have to do is not to prove anything. The day will come when they know its all wrong. Now, you will ask will the day come?? So what if it doesn't come?? You STILL CONTINUE TO LIVE!!! You live your life so, focus on your life. People around you are important but when it comes to reality and your life, leave it to GOD.. He will know what to do. Just be sure you're in the right track =)

weird happenings

No matter what happens on the way all these while, i have no clue to it. things are just so different now that some said i've changed yet i know i have drawn myself out of the circle. There are many things to realize in this tiny world. When things rush and come towards you banging and hitting, to manage things has gone far beyond. Experiences need to be lessons again. Situations are just not the same anymore. What every individual is taking up in life differs and nobody can understand the other. This is because not everyone has gone through the same thing. When you have love and hope on a person, no matter how far you grow apart, you always know that the person is there for you and you are there for them. Even if things has gone far too much to bring it back to place would be really hard yet not impossible.

To drift away from life is needed at times to release the burden within. No matter how long before you have been hurt, yet the scar is there not visible but hurts so badly. thats why no matter what, being alone and not doing anything would pull a person down. Not to say have not managed but when things seem not to be done, for things to be done the push is needed. No matter what, at the end of the day, as long as God is there with you, its more than anything. Depending on people and finding a way out is never a way. Do your part and leave the rest to Him. Not to blame situation behind me for my change but thats the fact. To work out things within needs a lot of time for the amount of damage caused can't just be explained like that.

To someone i care the most, I'll keep caring for you as you made such huge impact in my life. Without you there, i still feel the emptiness. i know you say things because you care. Its for the betterment but i have self-building to do. i'm no longer myself and i have lost the purpose of life. to find it back and get to track would be required. Thanks for being there yet i was not. Drifting is never the end. Don't worry that something is misleading me. Am in track and not overdoing anything. To let you know is hard.

at the moment, have learned many things here. Its building me and hope it will more. People are of different types and attitudes. Because something happened, the true colours of others is emerging out. Glad you showed it yet many are not what i thought they were. Opportunity brings them to place and fit in with others yet condemn and back-stab. Thanks for letting me know about you more. And am glad i did what i did. Learning took place.

Someone is just super sweet and i would do anything for her. Some things are getting better with her presence by me. she made me distract from my pain and with her there i feel like home. Without her would be hard to even breath. There are times where i still go blunt from thinking and she shows me the path to come out of it. Everyone has flaws yet no matter what, she's strong in her own ways just like each and everyone of us. For the fact that situations made us closer, made me shower my love and care towards that person. The care for sister and the love of a friend is always there. People can perceive what they want, yet as long as we know the pure love within.

Hoping things would turn to be better for the coming week and praying for everyones betterment and improvement.

Towards the end of holiday week....

Last two days was having fun with 2 buddies and sweet sister!!! Hehe.. It's been long since was crazy like that in Ipoh.... ( in Perlis most of the tyme like that only!!!! ) We shared a lot of stuffs!!!

First was Wednesday.. we went to parade to lepak. Had lunch and that was CRAZEE!! hehe.. Funny at some point of the time... After that, we were just hanging out while one doink looking for baju.. We tagged along everywhere doing whacko stuffs. After that, Kavitha went with her friends for movie dee... the 3 of us hanged at food court and chat and chat... then went back home already. Next was dance class. Not that i can't cope or what, just feeling if its all worth-it for the sacrifices i will be making. I really doubt i would be able to fulfill my promise and to do my very best. At the situation of mine, i could only try to do my best. Thats it.

Yesterday, we went to jusco abt 4 something. Hanged out again and makan makan and lepak lepak. Wanted to watch movie but then all was full there in Jusco!!!! Went to parade. 9.45 movie- Percy Jackson and the lightning thief. While waiting for the movie, we walked walked, leg also aching!!! huhu... The movie was good =) Enjoyed!! But...the cinema was super COLD!!!! huhuhu.... Thanks people!!!! My holidays was awesome this week with all my buddies and the movies... hehe... Just that never managed to finish up assignments.Or study!!!! hehe... There's time.. There's time!!!


No matter how weird life can be, one's feelings is weirder... Especially when people care and are sweet!!! Not to blame me or anyone but that's natural... cannot help it... muahahaha.... But it makes you wonder and think and you are prone to follow what you think. It can never be true most of the time. So, don't fall for it!!!!! So complicated. I myself don't know what i'm crapping about!! Life is unfair at times. It's okie to be selfish but is it bad to want something so badly and end up missing it out of the life. It's not like there are same people with same characters. The world is cruel and not many people out there are nice as it may seem to be. Some sharks are just preying and waiting for the right time. How come the good ones don't deserve a good life???? haha.. FULL OF EMO ALREADY!!!

So complicated when come to think of future and life.. Is it that guys take everything easily just why they seem cool with anything. they don't bother i suppose.. Girls would think about everything from beginning until what what could happen, might happen, this happen means how, that happens means how and the list goes on. It could be so simple but by the time go and travel all around and come back, still the same only.. huhu... Girls are like that.. What to do...

having great time.....

On Valentines Day was thinking what i should do and so on.. Eventually, one old friend called out for a drink. It was two then. We ere supposed to meet few more people it seems. And the whole thing was super awkward!!! hehe.. But 3 of us had fun chatting though. Was not so much of Chatter but okie ler.. To fill time.... And at night brought mom go shopping. I wanted to give a treat to mom and bro, so i took them to pizza hut. Had a nice day in conclusion. So not planned but sweet day.. =)

Yesterday, dad came back home already!! Bought so much stuffs.. WHEEE!!! hehe... And i went out with kiki and nagen( her cousin bro). These ppl real NUTTO!!! hehe... Had great fun with them.. Chatting, laughing and emoing..... watched wolfman--> was terrible!!! SCREAMING MOST OF THE TIME... Then, we went to lotus to watch GOA!!! Damn nice the movie.. It somehow or rather gave me memories... Haiihhhh... Here emoing started lerr....

Chatted on phone with someone. FEw days been chatting with him. I don't know if its right or wrong but for the moment, i don't want to miss the moments being with that person. Just missed the person. Anyways, the was chatting with kiki on phone for more than an hour!! haha.. total crap!!!!

Before that!! SHOBANA BANA's birthday!!! 19 alredy!!! hehe.. so, all i have to say to her is --> dear, there's four more years for us to be really with each other and i want u to be there for me... no matter what... It's like finally i have a sister and someone to bully as my sister.. sorry if at times i say stuffs but, when you're looking at me as a friend, i'm looking at you as my sister... chill yah.. =) love yah loads....

REALIZED

Why is it that when i come to a certain conclusion, there's always something that reverts back to me telling the opposite of what i presume it to be. I eventually learned to hate that person, was it worth-it? Love is something so random and unexpected but for the fact that someone can leave another person by telling what they think it is. There can always be a solution if you want something to happen. If not, it's your decision as well. As for me, i am clear in my thoughts about the past and i don't wish to dwell upon it anymore. I will be there but grow up. Learn that you determine how you live your life. Everything is in your hands. No matter what, my impression on all guys will remain the same.

To me, from what i have observed- love comes from first sight... i repeat... SIGHT!! Which means physical appearance. There are love which blossom from understanding but i bet you can count. The next reason from what someone i know said is love for some is just lust. For the fact that the relationship between guy and a girl is merely about sex and nothing else. How can someone just give themselves just like that to some random guy that you fing "CUTE"/ "HOT".. What would the perception of life be to those people then?? Okie.. You can tell me that it's their life and what do i care how they carry themselves.

To me, i feel its lack of humanity in people. They have lost sense of direction in life. To bring back a person is just impossible. No matter how much you talk to and advise, you're merely irritating character who is KPC!!!! Some can be animals that they treat their mother like source who gives everything and slams words to hurt. I'm not telling that i'm an "angel" myself. But i know what life is meant to be. I'm still searching my purpose of birth. No matter how drifted a can be from reality at times, i never forget my roots and i would never do anything to embarass my parents. Life should be taken seriously while you enjoy. Enjoy the bliss around you. Every little thing can make you smile. You will find life more interesting and worth to live.

Thoughts of mine can just go on and on. I may not behave or act to my age, but there are things that i know those people so called act their age. Why complicate life with age?? to live how one wnats to is an individual freedom. What matters in the end is to be able to manage and handle things around. That's the hardest!!!!! Yet, i'm proud of myself that i now consider myself thinking for my age.. ( even though i don't act like one.. who cares!!!! as long as i'm happy)

memories of life

To think of every happenings daily, sometimes it feels like a dream but yet again when the next day comes, its like you don't know whats happening again. Not that nobody bothers but its either you or people around you. haha..

Friendship is something so sweet that there is no boundaries of love. Feels like feeling the love from home. Someone who cares so dearly. So close yet still blur in my mind. Scared to face the future as anything can happen anytime. Weird yet nobody can deny that.

I miss my mom and dad.... i feel so like want to be back home. for all the fun i missed i want to fulfill it back to my life. how i wish i could avoid many things that had happened in my life never happened. But yet again, where will i learn all my lessons???

the experiences of life are just too meaningful to ignore or forget.. in pain, there are pearls within it. to look back, although it can be very hurting, but somehow, it'll make you smile for the memories.

will try as hard as i can to avoid these happenings. as it is no longer related to me.

APPRECIATE LIFE

Even though days seem to be so dull at times, there are always someone to cheer you up. After all, god is not totally unfair. He definitely gives everyone what they deserve best in life. I'm glad to be close with the friend of mine again... After such apart months. Care don't change but if after this it gets apart, it would hurt even more!!!!

For the fact that i'm closer to all of them now... It feels great but then again there's always the fear.. Just don't know why. I'm eventually having some sense of appreciation in my head.. Am appreciating everything.. And it connects with what Mr Kalai said in Moral class yesterday... Treat others like their lives are going to end soon. Everyone takes people generally for granted that they will always be there. It's time to face the fact of life!!

Exams around the corner and i still don't have the mood to study. HUHU!!!!