Best and worst of 2010

Lets see the best parts first

~ had great fun outings with family and friends

to name them,

Langkawi with kiki and abi

Gunung Lang with family

Penang with kiki

India with parents

awaiting looking forward for more next year =)

had lots of great events:

ponggal with friends in maktab

movie outings with juniors

temple outings with friends

leo activities which kept the year exciting

family events in alor star

-my birthday-

movies watched in cinema with friends and family (p/s: mostly with kiki) :-

twilight

man mathan ambu

uttama puthiran

eanthiran

singam

vinnaithandi varuvaiya

raavanan

boos engira baskaran

goa

percy jackson

prince of persia

harry potter part 1

kacheri aarambam

kitty galore

WHOO!! thats what for now i remember.. might have missed one or two.. yet, loved watching movies d... its nice outing though =)

next, mock-exams and finals was really tough, yet managed to get quite good pointers =) whee..

from all the ups and downs, yah, i've had a great year though

what i have achieved final months - dec that is :

remain vege for long

lose some inches

learn up vedas

being positive

reading more =)

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lets look at the worst 2010

well, to name them, nothing much..

low self esteem, ( yet have overcame it)

hypocrites around ( learned to ignore them)

downs at some point ( why?? its not like its the end of the world!! DANG IT!!)

well, after looking at the best parts i can't even think of any worst 2010 now..

anyways, 2moro will be a brand new year..

and my resolution is still simple

practice and read more sai teachings

serve & care for as many as i can

practice vegetarianism

and learn up more vedas

=)

simple and easy to follow

(* i do have some personal ones too.. ssshhh.. not to be mentioned here.. *)

Learnt

As new year is approaching, i have lots in my mind..

Right.. Last year, at this time, lets say it was not a time where someone should be in!! Miserable and sickening feeling. Darn it!! It was last year though. So, lets talk about this year now..

Throughout this year, i realized many many things in my life. I've known who really cared and who " cared less ".. Many things happened and there's no use of trying to fix things as probably those doesn't want to be fixed. So, why bother? But the people who have drifted away are people whom i dearly care and love. No matter what had happened, we as humans, should be aware that hatred and negative feelings and thinking, nothing can be achieved. Why bother indulging in such when life's too short? Spread care and love to as many as possible.

Next, things that I've learnt:-

1) from my own deeds

2) from people around me

3) from various situations (both my own and others)

this definitely involves both positive and negative.. like duh right!

Yet, no matter what, thanks to the lessons of life (2010), I have learnt really lots of how not to still trust people easily and never depend on others.

It's definitely in a good way =)

Also learned to avoid some people who are self-obsessed and might be bad-influence.

Had seriously got to know people too deep that probably some stuffs you wish you wouldn't have know. Yet, somehow, people are people and nobody's perfect.

Making list for next year as resolutions.. Yet, it's on the way.. hehe

Awaiting a better year ahead.. =)

past is past

Wished

wished things were better

wished memories would fade

wished somethings never happened

yet, it had to

wished i was happy too

wished i had someone too

wished i moved on too

yet, Maybe

wished things never gone too far

wished never met you

wished memories could be erased

yet, what has done cannot be undone

so, as new year is coming,

move on, have fun and chill

its been a year and theres much more in life

what has to happen will happen

and its all for good =)

have new wishes with good thought

advanced happy new year...

2nd and final part of INDIA trip =)

well, that was the main thing for my India trip this time. But in Mandralayam it was good as well. Nice view of Raghavendra's samadhi and spent two days over there. Also joined few pujas over there in the temple.

Yet, the place, Mandralayam is still not that developed and so dirty all over. Even Tungabathra river which is supposed to be a holy river is so dirty.

Damn! why can't they keep holy and sacred rivers conserved and maintain them as it is supposed to???? Worst still, from my trips to the India, this is another place with so many beggars! With child some more! Poor little kids. But, why can't they work and survive?? Only god knows the answer!

After Mandralayam went to Bangalore! Did shopping for sarees there! LURVE the sarees there as it's mostly designers collection. And me don't really likey the patte type saree. Yet, this time bought fewer than last time cause i seldom where sarees and still have some haven't sewn the blouse also. But cannot be denied that i'm so obsessed with "THEM"!! hahax

In bangalore, visited visited the shivan temple

and ISKON temple for the second time.

Eventhough second time but these two temples are still really special =D

After Bangalore, we went to Kerala! There, it was actually nothing much. Just that it has wonderful beach, and rivers and lakes with awesome sceneries!! FUH!! And also GURUVAYUR temple!! My mom loved the krishna there. =) hehe And as wanted, bought 2 kerala sarees and 1 punjabi suit cloth. For memories of Kerala that is. Next don't know when will be going there again. Also the famous KERALA BOATING!!

Beautiful moments...

After Kerala, we went to Coimbatore and Trichy. There mostly went to temples.. =) Temples in India are just so CROWDED!! Always that is!! We have to queue up and it will take either 1 or 2 hours sometimes.. haha.. YES!! But what to do, those were ancient temples with great histories and the structures of the temples are always unique.!!

On last 3 days was in Chennai. There, we went to Mailapur Shiridi Temple the first day in chennai.

Then, the next two days, we were really busy shopping where we would go to the hotel room just to sleep and rest =P Hectic yet loved shopping there in rengganathan streets =) Well, had satisfying shopping session! And was thankful to reach home safely on 19th DEC where slept and woke up the next day ni! Guess it was the tiredness of shopping! hahax..

INDIA PART 1

WELL, AT THIS TIME OF THE DAY, I CAN'T SLEEP YET!! SO, HERE I AM BLOGGING..

FIRST AND FOREMOST, MY INDIA TRIP WAS JUST AWESOME!!! ESPECIALLY IN PUTTAPARTHI AND MANDRALAYAM. ( PUTTAPARTHI - SAI BABA AND MANDRALAYAM- RAGHAVENDRA)

WHEN I WAS LEAVING MALAYSIA, I WAS KEEPING MY FINGERS CROSSED THINKING WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IN PARTHI AND WILL SWAMI COME FOR DARSHAN AND ON AND ON.. THEN, I SAID TO MYSELF, OKIE, LETS JUST LEAVE IT TO HIM AND SURE ENOUGH HE KNOWS IF I DESERVE HIS DARSHAN.

DAY 1

WHEN REACHED CHENNAI, THE DRIVER OF TOUR WAS ALREADY WAITING FOR US. WE STARIGHT STARTED OUR JOURNEY TO PUTTAPARTHI. IT WAS TOLD THAT THE TRIP WOULD BE A LONG JOURNEY.. ON THE WAY, I WAS JUST ENJOYING THE SCENERIES OF INDIA. THE BEAUTY OF MOTHER NATURE IS JUST AWESOME OVER THERE..

SO, WE WERE GOING ON AND ON.. AND HE DRIVER MISSED A ROAD AND BECAUSE OF THAT, WE HAD TO GO EXTRA FURTHER JOURNEY. YES, I WAS THINKING IN MY HEART, " SWAMI, WHY ARE YOU PUTTING US IN THIS SITUATION?? PLEASE KEEP US SAFE THROUGHOUT THIS JOURNEY TO SEE YOU"!!

YET, WE WENT THROUGH TERRIBLE ROADS, PASSED FEW VILLAGES WHEN THEY DO HAVE HIGHWAY DIRECT TO PUTTAPARTHI. I FELT OKIE ITS JUST A SMALL PATIENCE TEST OF SWAMI AND NEVER THOUGHT ANYTHING ELSE. SOON, AFTER ASKING AROUND THE ROUTE, WE MANAGED TO REACH PARTHI WITH 7 HOURS JOURNEY !! WE WENT TO THE HOTEL AND AFTER KEEPING THE THINGS, WE WENT OUT TO SURVEY THE DARSHAN TIMES AND ALL. WELL, IT WAS 2006 WHEN PREVIOUSLY I WENT WITH THE 1ST YATRA GRP!! WHEN I STEPPED IN THE ENTRANCE GATE, THE JOY IN MY HEART WAS JUST SO NICE AND ITS INDESCRIBABLE.. WE WENT AROUND INQUIRING AND WENT FOR DINNER AND WENT OFF TO HOTEL TO GET SOME REST.

DAY 2

WE WOKE UP ABOUT 4 AND WENT FOR NAGASANGEERTAN AT 5 . I RECALLED THE DAY WHEN WE AS A GROUP CAME FOR THIS, AS I SAW FEW GROUPS COMING AND JOINING THE CROWD. IT WAS NICE BHAJAN SESSION AND SOON AFTER THAT, ME AND MY MOM WERE LOST. WE DON'T KNOW WHERE TO WAIT FOR THE MORNING DARSHAN.. I THOUGHT GONE!! EVENTHOUGH WE WERE INFORMED SWAMI WON'T BE COMING MORNING, YET I WANTED TO JOIN IN AT LEAST FOR THE BHAJAN AND ENJOY MY MOMENTS IN KULWANT HALL!! SO, WE FOLLOWED A CROWD AND LINED UP WITH THEM. YET, AFTER HALF AN HOUR WE REALIZED IT WAS A GROUP, THEN WE INQUIRED WHERE WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GO. SOON THEN WE FOUND OUT AND SAT. IT WAS NOT CROWDED AT THAT TIME CAUSE SWAMI WON'T BE COMING. YET, THERE WERE PEOPLE STILL COMING TO JOIN IN BHAJAN. SO, YAH WE WAITED AND PICKED A NUMBER TO SEAT INSIDE, AND WENT IN. IT WAS TOWARDS THE WALL SIDE AND EVEN IF SWAMI CAME, I WAS THINKING, I WOULDN'T GET TO SEE HIM THE WHOLE WHILE!!! YET, AFTER THE BHAJAN AND ALL, WE WENT FOR BREAKFAST AT THE WESTERN CANTEEN AND THEN TO THE BOOKSHOP TO BUY BOOKS AND CDS..

AFTER LUNCH, WE LINED UP BACK AT 2.15. WE SAT IN THE FIRST ROW. I WAS DETERMINED TO CHANT MANTRAS WITH MY JAPAMALA ALL THE WHILE WAITING TO GO IN THE HALL TO GET A GOOD SEAT TO BE ABLE TO SEE SWAMI. THEN, ABOUT 4 SOMETHING ROUGHLY, WE PICKED A NUMBER AND IT WAS 1!!!! I WAS SOO OVERJOYED!! YET, I WAS KEEPING MY FINGERS CROSSED AND WENT TO THE HALL.. IT WAS EMPTY THEN.. SO, WE QUICKLY SAT AT THE 4TH ROW. FIRST FRONT 4 ROWS WERE RESERVED I GUESS. THEN, I CONTINUED WITH MY JAPA TILL THE VEDAS STARTED TO CHANT. THEN BHAJAN WAS STARTED. AND I WAS ANXIOUS WAITING FOR SWAMI. THEN, A SEVADA CAME AND ASKED TO MOVE 1 ROW IN FRONT. OKIE AND WAITED AND WAITED. THEN, THE MOMENT THERE WAS SIGNAL BABA WAS COMING, ALL RUSHED AS THERE WERE EMPTY SEATS. I DID TOO!! ^_^ AND I WAS AT SECOND ROW WAITING FOR SWAMI. HE SLOWLY CAME IN HIS WHEELCHAIR. IT WAS DIFFERENT THAN THE PREVIOUS TIME BECAUSE THEN, HE CAME IN CAR AND NOW IT WAS SO NEAR AND NICE VIEW!! HE DID STOP TOO, WHERE I GOT EXTRA LONG TIME TO SEE HIM. NO MATTER WHAT, I GOT MY DARSHAN, AND I NEVER ASKED MORE!! THIS ITSELF WAS A GIFT OF SWAMI TO ME. THANKED HIM LOTS IN MY HEART AND AFTER SWAMI LEFT THE HALL, I WAS SO SATISFIED! I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, WE WERE REMINDED CONSTANTLY IN PREVIOUS YATRA NOT TO BE TOO ATTACHED TO HIS PHYSICAL FORM. AND NO I WAS NOT ANYMORE. JUST WITH HIS PRESENCE GAVE ME ENOUGH SATISFACTION AND I NO LONGER URGE TO HAVE HIM IN FRONT OF ME, BECAUSE HE IS THERE ALWAYS WITHOUT ME REALIZING IT!

THIS WAS A GREAT IMPACT THAN THE PREVIOUS TIME. EVEN-THOUGH I ONLY HAD THE CHANCE OF GETTING 1 DARSHAN, I FELT MYSELF SO LUCKY TO BE SO CLOSE TO SWAMI. NO MATTER WHAT HAD HAPPENED BETWEEN US ( us seriously ) YET, HE REMINDED ME THAT HE WAS THERE FOR ME, HE IS STILL THERE AND WILL ALWAYS BE THERE. THAT MESSAGE WAS SUPER CLEAR TO ME.

~SHAN~

- TO BE CONTINUED-

Till 19th DEC... Adiós..!!

Well, the last post did bring out negative outcome of some who underestimated themselves, yet, its not my problem on solving it. Shall leave it to themselves.

So far, at home i've got nothing much to do. Yet, i did go for some Sai activities where i gained a lot!! Probably about seva, ( includes Animal seva and other seva), taking up vegetarianism, and to practice golden words/ messages of Sai. In-depth, it really brings you somewhere beyond...

Will try my level best to take up all 3 with my whole will..!!

Next, i'll be going to India again and this will be my 3rd visit there =)

And probably next, not quite sure when i'll be going.. So, shall make the full use of it..

Hope everything would go fine and smooth..

Am leaving on 5th Dec, 8 am flight and would be back on 19th Dec..

Its going to be fun because I'll be going to Kerala this time =P

Am quite excited about this Because of their unique traditions, culture and cuisine.. =)

QUESTIONS UNANSWERED (part 2)

Sure and definitely for many questions yet, there would not possibly be answers..

Like why some relationships don’t lasts?? –relationships can mean friendship, lovers or even any loved ones

Even so, is there EGO present in that depth relationship?? WHY?? Don’t you love your loved ones??

Fine, that we can leave. Let’s look at this scenario..

You are in a love relationship, you talk this and that, yet you know you won’t last with that person.. Then, why commit?? Even if you attempt to try, why not try until you succeed??

Another one scenario..

You are so called in deep love, : where you have to hang on phone 24/7 with that person..

Then, when you break up after a long time,you immediately find a replacement to talk with, continuing another relationship which you call it love as well. How is that possible?

So, the main BIG question à what is LOVE? You call that love?

How come love is so cheap nowadays?

I know a person who went for another girl and wanted to marry her because of her appearance and her complexion!! Since when this was a requirement for love?

Seriously every girl dreams of getting married to her prince charming that would cherish and provide love for her. What would she feel if her prince wants to marry her for what she is and her appearances rather than how her personality is?

Would that prince charming come and leave, or get married after "his work" is officially done?

Playboy’s, playgirls, flirts – make love something impossible to achieve.

By using love, anything is possible now. Why is that so?

Leave love aside.

What about friendships? They change too!

Humans are still human!

Anyway, why do we humans keep so much in our head and keep grinding and spinning and turning our thoughts for some silly stuff that barely matters to us as an individual?

Life has lots of challenges, yes, but somehow, do we get as far as we strive? I thought we were not supposed to ask anything to come to us, but yet, we can expect that to happen on its own? Isn’t it still the same and it goes back to square one?

I have 1 BIG question!

Surf the net, read books.

Can it really convince you? What is the fact? God exist or God was created by mankind?

Come on, I do believe in God!! It’s just curiosity. (curiosity KILLS!! – I know)

If God exist, then why are there so many religions? Why not just make it one religion, one race?

That was what caused segregations right? The colours of Man. You can say, nonsense! Which Stone Age are you from? But somewhere deep within, it must still exist I think. Yet, I have no prove to it.

No matter what, to me, GOD is ONE! And there is only one race, MANKIND..

~to be continued~

Shandra

QUESTIONS UNANSWERED (part 1)

There would be times where many of our questions will remain unanswered...

It would last for ages and even till the day we die.

But curiosity is an inborn nature in every human being.

About my unanswered questions... the list would go on and on..

Since young i've been exposed to religions ( be it Hinduism, Buddhism, Christianity, Islam, Sikhism and so for).. BALVIKASà Sai Centre

I have great interest in getting to know in depth of all these.. But I want to learn Hinduism in more depth.. But, that will be like.... I don't know.. It's just that there's too much to learn about..

There's vedas, saints, yogi's, epics, and yah, the list would carry on..

So, the thought of it would be a "sudden break"..

But, it's not imposible yah.. Slowly i'll attain them..

Then would be why are people so engrossed to be in a relationship or to get going on or moving on with others??? Is life all about meeting, mating and and dying??

Isn't there supposed to be a reason of us being here on this earth???

We're happily living our lives as it is... mostly unsatisfied of this and that...

Isn’t life actually supposed to be all about unattachment???

Then what are we living?? Is this world that we’re living in that sinful??

Everywhere people are tempted over money, property, greed, jealousy, lust and you name the bad qualities..

Religion is seldom given importance to now..

( AAhhh..Why is she talking like she’s an angel?/ She’s imperfect herself!!!)

That might cross your mind now.. since when I told that I’m perfect??

It’s just from what I have read and my inner curiosities…

I cannot help it!! Hahahax..

So, there can be explanations for all these.. But yet, where is it being practiced now??

Am I talking “Egypt” ??? I hope not!!

I thought this is going to be easy but this is getting even more complicated for me to write this =P

So, I would continue more in my next blog…

home now..

Well, its been 2 days now at home.. Nothing much yesterday... Just as usual days, waking up, having breakfast... watching tv,... lunch... tv... cook dinner... tv... hahax...

off and on, online.. if i get the signal that is!!!!

Apart from that, today??? so far... hahax

Woke up about 12 pm only deyh!!! KENG eh!!!!

hahax.. den, cooked lunch while eating fruits,... =)

cooked slowly,... while listening to songs... damn relax days.. huhuk

Ate and now facebooking and updating blog...

So, now i'll be at home for about 1 1/2 month... I have to find something to do..

I have something in mind, other than that, will start back reading novels.. =P

Miss spending time with novels..

And also clearing some stuffs at home...

~ house chores i mean~

hehex..

will come up with more thoughts to write on..

till then, adiouz... =P

just a brief adventurous moments..

i'm still way back 2 date.. pheww.. never quite got the time and things always crop up along with bad internet connection!!!!
well, the flood went okie.. and
exams went ok as well...
as all were over, there's not much description to make!!

on 12th, we went to Penang.. man, it was hard convincing parents who thinks their children are still child!!????
Man!!! yet, apart from that, we enjoyed the whole day to the max..
we explored as much as we could in that limited time we had...

it was just so memorable... =D

had lotsa fun Ki2.. =P hehex

then, 13th was kiki's b-day... just bought smallest cake the both of us.. ordered Domino.. n YES, we ate!!!!!!!!

hahax..

it was so nice to have an adventurous gal by me..

yet, not many are like that sadly.. huk huk..

waiting for more to come.. =)

> anyway, getting to penang is like soo easy!!!!!!!!!!!

hahax..

2/11/2010

This was the day where my class had Language Development finals. It ended at 11.30 and most of them were planning to go back home right after. I was to go back on the next day, 8 pm bus to Ipoh. Yet, this day turned to be the most tragic day of my life..!!

There was extreme FLOOD in Perlis!! Which even caused one of the highway to Changlung to be closed. As we, the students of IPG Perlis were inside, we were totally unaware of the situation outside! But students staying outside were forced to come in hostel in order to attend examination. without being stranded by flood.

So, back to the story, after exam me and Kiki went to cafe for food, but then, GK was there telling the flood is getting bad and it is expected to get worse by 4 pm!! We got worried.. Karmen who was not in the idea of going back immediately booked GK as well. Goh Goh got panicked as well.. poor girl.. Gk was supposed to drop me, kiki, karmen and shoba in Alor star bus station. Goh was supposed to follow Mah out to bus station.. Too bad, the situation went out of hand and got worse. Gk's car was unable to pass the flood.. And so, ... ( BLANK!!) Furious!!!

Finally, there was this news of maktab bus sending the students to kuala perlis to get bus back home. Gk dropped us in front of maktab and went back to uncle's house.. We safely got on the bus, where Goh goh also was there. As we were at Kuala Perlis, there was a panic to go back to ipoh straight or to go alor star and take money and eat, then only go. We made our mind to choose the second choice. Yet, the stupid bus went back to Kangar bus station to get 2 people!! HUK HUK!!! lame.. yet, we could see that the situation was quite bad over there!!

Then, worried about some doinks who was just in room, not knowing the situation outside!! Made sure all knew the news and gave them the maktab bus contact num.. Thank god some managed to get on the bus to Alor Star!!!

Finally we reached A/s abaot the same time.. Then, we got on the same bus to go to IPOH!! I was like as long as we safely reach ipoh is more than enough!!

The next day, still a junior called me asking favour on how to go back!! I was like WHAT!!???? haven't gone back??? WHY????

She was like dad never allowed to take the bus last night. It seems there was a bus which sent the students to kuala perlis at that night.. So, i gave her the bus contact number to ask if there's any way out. And if there is, inform others who wants to get back home as well!!

Thankfully most of them went back home.

Even after getting home, i was so worried seeing the news and reading the newspapers!! There's yet 2 more exams to go!!! There was no peace of mind either, tAhinking of all this..

Off and on, i messaged IDA to get the update in maktab. She was a help as well so, thanks to her..

first paper over..

Language Description paper is OVER!!!

YEAH!! Great.. The most scariest paper is not to be in mind for the moment.

Tomorrow will be Language Development, consist of comprehension, summary and essays...

Todays paper was just ok.. Not too bad.. The tenses part was super duper confusing. Anyway, since it's over, i don't want to even think about it!

Just going to rest and then go through some essays. Thats it.

It has been raining for TWO DAYS!! Continuously!!!

Its damn cold and thanks to the rain, the exam hall was quite conducive for exam purpose!! hehex.. But still, quite scary.. Even if one whole day rain its weird over here in Perlis, what more TWO???

Not that i'm not enjoying the rain or what.. Just wondering!! Whats wrong with the climate change..???

Anyway, for now, i want to sleep and rest!!