NEW YEAR!!!!

Here's new year and off goes 2009!! Great memories with friends, family and loved ones. Just hope everything continues as it is. Hope to have more fun with all people i love!!! You people know who you are!! Thanks for being there when i needed someone with me.. Someone told me its a new year and am supposed to start fresh.. haha.. Don't know hoe it works but lets see how life goes. Am just going to watch it as days past by. Better than to get involved with major stuffs.


During bhajan today, had great message from swami.. - the pain and sufferings we experience are because of our own karma and he cannot do anything about it. he is there for everyone all the time , in happiness, sadness or whatever. Yet, he guides us during our dark moments and gives us great message on how to live life so that we can be nearer to god and experience bliss within out. No matter what, people only think of god during dark moments in life or when they want something, either a promotion, better result or etc.; and god is giver and he only gives those who deserves it. Ask god for happiness and ou will get because he is a loving mother to all and he loves his children a lot!!!


Today bhajan was great and i thank swami for giving me a song =) missed a lot singing in bhajan!! FOR YOU SWAMI!! Met akka all.. Yoga akka, SHALINI AKKA !!! ( its been super long !! miss yah lots ), hema akka ( also very long since i met her ) ... Rami oso!! How grown up she is now!!! hehe.. time flies!!!! She was a small cute girl last i saw her!! haha... And the guys with their fire crackers!!!! cracking my head and ears!!! hehe.. but it was fun!! SASI--->>>>---- ahem... one loose!!!!! hehe... miss him too!!! n RENU!!! =P hehe..
Had fun with those poeple...


Waiting for next year.. oops.. NEXT YEAR events... HHmmmm... lets see how things go on....
=P

discoveries ( PROBABLY )

Christmas was boring!! Did nothing much. Did some homework and watched tv all the while.. huhu.. Apart from that, next day of christmas, ( y'day ) went to racheal's house. Cheryl is all grown up now. big kid d.. =)) hehe.. nice girl. Had nice time there with the sisters and phil. =P he's totally hillarious and cracko!!! its been quite sometime being around whacko ppl!!

Everyone is having issues. Why must growing up be so complicated??? Damn!! Life is school was so much more easier to handle. It is fun to explore but it's getting more and more tough. Probably when young, life was too easy and now we have to eventually learn it the hard way!! hhmm.. Friends all over are now like busy with own lives and we hardly meet. Thats really sad! I miss hanging out with my buddies.. Can't wait 4 levin to be back as well!!!

I wish to know more about life and people. Yet sometimes or most of the times, they are so predictable. In every relationships in lives, i've noticed that everyone takes everything for granted and when it's hard between them, they just burst out! No matter what, nothing would last long even our lives. How hard we try to live simple and down to earth, things just don't seem to be like that. However, everything would just jumble up and create chaos.

Since there's always 2 sides all along, probably no one, NO ONE escapes from the tragic yin and yang/ good and bad/ +ve and -ve and the list would go on and on. Probably everyone should also nourish their soul not just the body.!! People alwayz forget the reason they are here.. It gets much deep when you go in further but some prefer to ignore it and just lead a " normal " life ... Somehow at a certain point, you would end up asking

1) what am i doing here??

2) whats my purpose behind all these...

and the famous one

3) why is it happening to me??? / why must i be the one to experience this???

so, to get those answers, DON"T ASK ME!!!!! hehe

ASK YOURSELF!!

look.... what was i talking about and where it lead me to????? this is why i shouldn't be sitting and staring all the while to the space...

EVERYTHING HAPPENDS FOR A REASON

For now, i'm totally ignoring what had happened to me during this 1 month break.
It seems to be such a weird and scary nightmare!!! NEVER EVEN WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT!!

For life has to go on no matter what happens.
let's have a positive thought that something even better in life is waiting to happen though.
Am not telling these stuffs will not bother me, it's too deep. Just that it takes plenty of time.
Things would be better soon and we shall always hope for the best to happen =)

NEW LEAF

It's getting to year end and so far things has not been going too smooth in my life. As in everyone's lives there's always ups and downs as there is day and night. Problems are far way too small when you look at it as challenges. But way too many " challenges" in my life!! Hehe.. if you come to think of it, if there are none of them ( as in the "challenges"), life would just mean nothing. We'll remain not learn much about life and what fun could there be?? Definitely makes sense.!!

Moving on, its just funny when someone claims to be a friend " of oppurtunist" ( created new word!! don't bother looking for the meaning as i suppose its understandable) and drags you around even you realizing it but cannot stop or prevent it!! so, what you should do is, let it be that way and leave it!! It's not your duty to change everyone as you're NOT a saint yourself. People should learn it the hard way as that would keep the incidents fresh in their thick heads!! huhu..

just ruined todays mood in blogging.. the rest till i return...

~sha~

BIRTHDAY-ASSIGNMENT

Just felt like was in holidays but so fast had to come back and had assignment and handed it in as well already!!! whoosshh.. Oh yah, regarding my b-day this year was a blast!! Seriously..

At beginning, Indian girls at my class never wished and it as kind of awkward; which was because even though in front of them other classmates wished but they didn't.. Super tensed already.

Ended up at night they set up and bought cake to celebrate it.! DAMN!! I was in tears. And the best thing on my birthday was my cousin and closest friend took the trouble to call and wish me from overseas. Super sweeet!! And my other friend, shassi, he made his friend to sing me birthday song.. hehe.. This was quite a memorable birthday and the first out from home.

And next celebrated in butterworth with relatives and cousins. That was super fun as well!! Had great weekend in Alor Star and came back Sunday to do assignment!!!

And today, Wednesday!! Had to pass up language description 1 coursework. Already done.. Super tensed ler.. First ever serious assignment for English. As it is Ramadhan month, our lunch is a big problem. already the food in campus also like what nie, no lunch worse! But if got, the food is super BAD!!! But dinner is cekap cause there is bazar just out of my campus. That's the only lucky thing.

Already got another 2 assignments and one more in waiting list. CRAP!! Towards the end of this month would be super pack!!!!!! Head-ache !!!!!!

...

Although life seems to be dragging on and on, the beauty of it is always to be

experienced. Okie..

So now, i am more of looking forward of whet god has planned for me there in perlis.

And yes, for the first 1 1/2 years i'll be studying there. i've got the letter from Institut Perguruan Perlis

yesterday and so far done most of the work ( eg- photocopy all certs, get clothes, get BSN account) yah thats done so far and today morning went to St Micheals to get Mr Phoon'ssignature. about 80% done can be said.

I do miss my friends in UTAR and the places. It was such a beauty!!! ish.. Sadly, leaving.

I probably could have this purpose of imparting knowledge to others in this life. =P

As well to help people. ( what always i wanted to do)

view in utar campus between block a and b

housemates+neighbours

group members =)

I just do hope god would guide me through this part i'm being directed.

"he" knows what i deserve and not. Am not goin to ask much either.

Just wish everything would go smooth in life there.

life has to go on no matter what happens

here come again time to go away from the place i'm quite gettin used to. to a place which totally i'm not familiar with..
goin to a place and to settle takes a long time.. and it did for me in UTAR but now, i have to get moving to perlis.. its not something which is impossible but just heart ache where i have to leave people i just got to know , especially those who are super sweet and kind!!! my housemates and course mates.. its normal to meet people and get apart.. yet it is difficult to handle..
and so, here what the situation is..

i was studyin in utar.. for about 5 weeks and here is where i got 2 offers..
- ums- science forestry (where it is soo impossible for me to go)..
-institut perguruan perlis( eventually goin soon)
so, 13th july will be goin off there already..
hope for the best and lets wait and see what come on..

life so far in UTAR

Here i am in the comp lab bloggin again after such a long time..
ish.. ish..
its super lame i know but do i have a choice>????
still no internet access in mua house ler in kampar..
so far here in utar, :

1st week

not bad ler.. house mates are okie with me.. and i am okie with them..
SO FAR!!! thank god lah.. at least.. hahahax..
and the orientation week!!!!
got ponteng ler!!! hahax... soo super boring..
oni 1st week met cynthia n all.. after that, never meet edi...
ntg much also lah here..
the sceneries are super nice lah...
apart from that, 1st week ntg..

2nd week

bought bicycle!!!! hahax..
after sooo long back to it... never thought of it at all!!!
classes so far not bad ler..
just time table is quite pack with night classes..
and no raggin all so far!!
whee =P
maha, (saidy's fren) is my course mate as well as in the same group as me..
ok lah.. at least got someone with me..
just in uni life one should not depend another too often.. better to be really independent!!! seriously..
avoids lots of unwanted problems..
just had group for assignments.. so, have to go ask puru about it later on..
so, thats all lah so far.. gona be soon tied up to stuffs( studies ler)..

SIMPLE THOUGHTS OD THE DAY.. =P

in life, many people speak as they like and what is sad is that not many practice what they preach..

they say something and yet they behave as if that person is soo perfect..

its normal for them but what they don't realize is that everyone is watching, INCLUDING GOD!!

once we know there is someone always watching us, no matter what we do, we would think twice.. or even more!!

they can be in any age and yet, EGO is really high for some people, its just hard for them to accept themselves as they go around pointing fingers at others..

once man stops looking at persons weakness and starts only looking at strenghts, the life of that particular person is already heading towards the divinity within..

however, as man develop, the main focus is only to earn as much money as he can..

the world has become world of materialistic.. where a saying goes, "no money, no talk"..

there would probably come a world where everything can only be done if you have money.. what would happen to those without money??? would poverty increase theN??

and what would life be like then???? with full of stress working towards earning..

what about family???? GOD??? PEACE, LOVE???

would the world become a place full of people with no feelings.. only hatred, jealousy, envy, and evil characteristics.. SUPER SCARY!!!

i was just thinking, why we have to work so hard, for everything in the world except ourselves!!!

look at most of our parents, they do their very best to give what ever we want but when it comes to them, they think a lot!!!

true that we do want our lives to be easy and good, since life is short, we should also enjoy our lives.. there is soo much new experiences to be gained in life as we grow older.. we should look forward and not go away from it and focus on just working n earning..

people too when only they want something, they come towards you and at other times you are totally INVISIBLE!!! not many people you can trust easily.. so, learn and study a person before putting the full trust and faith..

life is changing..

past few days was super busy with dance practice and all..

stayed in teachers house for 23 days and 2 nights..

before that, i went for dance programme/ show by SMT Padma Subramaniam..

although she's too old to perform dance with tough Jadhis and all, her expressions were SUPERB!!! loved it lots.. hehe.. not forgetting veenai and sarod instrumental music played by india musicians.. mesmerising as well!!!

dance practice in teachers house was okie ler.. just that her lil girl was coming into da pic..

small kid mah.. wat 2 do..
but the 2 FULL DAY training was really needed!! MAN!!! i'm going to be dancing with my teacher as her partner!!! nt equally good also should be GOOD at least!!!

working on it..

hehe..

other than that, went out with levinra and his sis.. had fun.. whee.. watched movie...

gona miss him.. hahax..

sunday night, ty class, went l8..

thank god had time to talk to aunty Shanti.. GONA MISS her and other guys lots!!!

they're like my FAMILY!! love them lots..

not like i'm going somewhere far away.. but, un lah ryte, the moment things around me change, many things will come up and have 2 deal with it...

NEW FAMILY MEMBER

today was pretty much boring day!!
only evening went to hospital to visit maria aunty's baby..
baby boy .. damn CUTE!!!! hahax.. so soft and small ler.. ish ish.. suka nYER!!!! hahax..

after that, went for dance class already..
super BORING in class.. was not feeling well either and teacher went through the dance drama thingi..

came back and thats it lah.. nothing much anywayz..

pictures taken in kl

top 4 pictures on a book " persuasion"


damn nice book!!! try to get this book and read..

cute rabbits and hamster in GIANT

me in giant

on da way back time, car on the bukit there

nice view from car

bathroom door cute eh???

WEIRD AND MORE WEIRD!!

oh yah!! totally forgot about this!!! and about the "mushroom" guy and his wierdness in messaging, confirmed what i thought!!! well, i can't blame him and myself for what happened to him.. but seriously i'm not responsible at all!! anyways, he said everythings fine and we'll be real good friends just like we were.. and i hope it'll be in that way..



*just rough description so that i won't ever forget this!!!

3 days and 2 nights in kl with parents

friday, 8 may 2009

about 8 came back home from kl.. such a long long day!!!hahax..well, lets go back to Wednesday..

Wednesday

reached kl at 5 something and checked into Hotel Sri Puchong..
actually went kl cause dad had some work stuff goin on there and mom took off so that both of us can go and lepak in kl.. ( not something we've done before!!! )
anywayz, after putting all the things in the room, we went out to "survey" the place..
maklum lah we don't always go kl, and go also ask for kumar anne's help..
and we went to GIANT which was right opposite the hotel..( must cross the road ler.. )
bought few stuffs there.. and went to mamak to have dinner.. we didn't eat much.. was not hungry that time.. on our way back, there was lots of stalls selling food and all,, i asked mom for "chakui".. he gave some herbal thingi.. went to hotel and the minute i ate that, had rashes on ny hand.. haha.. funny though.. and dad was like better go see dr now before it gets bad.. and he was going on and on about buying food from the stall.. hahax.. so, went to the clinic and saw dr.. she said once u have allergy to some food, better not to touch it again.. and i was like OKAY.. not my favourite also.. =)
and after that nothing much, slept..

Thursday

got up at 9 and we had fruits, maggie in room.. went out then..
dad went off to cyberjaya at 7 all..
so, me and mom took a bus, 69 from the hotel to Midvalley..
we went around and around and bought few stuffs and all.. and then i dragged mom to MPH and spent about nearly 1 1/2 hours there.. saw some really nice great books.. will update more about a book later.. after that, went to dominos to have lunch.. the pizza was soo nice and cheezy.. nyammmy.. =) hahax.. and the banana kaya bread also super nice.. okay.. and then, went jusco and we were super tired.. so, finally decided to go back..
at first we were standing at the wrong side and then went to the other corner to wait for the bus.. after such long long long time only the bus 69 came.. got into it and got back to hotel.. dad was there already.. and so, we rested awhile in room and went down nearby chinese shops.. ate and got back to the room..
called magees and slept in awhile.. tired!!!

friday

morning got up late about 10 already.. so, same like yesterday only.. we planned to go brickfields but sure would be back late so, we decided to hang around the place till dad gets back.. check out hotel at 12 and went around giant and got some stuffs.. had lunch.. lepak awhile more and got back to hotel waited for dad..

so, roughly that was what happened.. so lessons learnt:-

1. do not simply buy food in the stalls and eat
2. make sure you know where you are supposed to stand when taking a bus
3. make early arrangements
4. don't over eat!!!

hahax.. so, i have gotten darker skin tone and gained back weight i suppose from these two days.. but i did have great fun out there travelling and all that.. learned lots too =)

growing up

"FRIENDS COME AND GO IN OUR LIVES

ONLY THE REAL AND TRUE ONES STAY"

this is quite a saying that is familiar to many.. well. DUH!!! its very true..

eventhough with technologies like facebook/friendster/what-so-ever, still there would be some distance between some..

many would have realized or experienced this stuffs..

but eventually, got back many contacts from high school which i lost.. and also friends where we fought childishly back then..

since, life is goin on soo fast, all memories seem still fresh in mind..

many things happen through out our lives and at one point, when we sit and think back, it'll bring back mixed feelings of joy, laughter, tears and misery..

i was just thinking back all this suddenly.. hahax.. and thanks to ESH..

we were talking about our childhood times.. he was telling me his stories and all..

that is when i began to miss my past and noticed how much i have 'missed'.. not much though but still there are some where i didn't quite enjoy my old days..

was more to the introvert type.. but in high school yeah.. got into many troubles.. hahax.. not that angelic either!!! that was when i learnt a lot about the outer world, guys, people and friends..

how evil can some people be when they can ruin you just because they don't like you..

one point thanks to shalu akka and haanusia akka..during india trip..

well, indirectly they just gave me off and told how tough the world out there can be..

so, THANKS =) hehex..

next, abt "mushroom" guy!! he actually was messaging me yesterday in sorta weird way!! hahax..

anywayz, simply WEIRD!! aND i just hope he's not like what i'm thinking..

besides, latest, if everything is like normal and nothing comes in, i'll be goin to utar by 25th this month and its super scary!! hahax.. see lah how..

hope for the best!! whee..

interview..

well its really exciting day today!! totally..
firstly, teachers training interview which i got was held in Institute Pendidikan Guru Malaysia Kampus Ipoh, near tr and tambun tat side..
and when first i went i, they directed towards the library where the interview was held..
and so, there were the first group of 5 out of 6 who were present there..
2 malay girls, one chinese and one indian girl (kesturi, frm bio sri kota tuition) + one malay guy( confirm get one)..
and so, i joined aND CHIT CHATED WITH THEM .. super nice people..
and later on, the ones from my group started coming.. another indian girl, neevashini(whom i tot was punjabi), one chinese girl from selangor, and one malay girl from sg siput..
my group all are from form 6 and the previous one, 3 out of 5 are form 6 leavers..
hehex..
the first part was :- INSAK test.., ( some what like medsi and all, aptitute test 2 be specific)
second part was:- group discussion,( like MUET)
TOPIC- a person succeed when one is self-disciplined,
and lastly, individual interview, :-
questions asked,

Which year u sat for spm, ?
did u do stpm?
Wat u got ?
Where and what are the courses u applied??
Y u applied ums and unimas???
Wat r u doin now??
What other working experience do you have?/
Why r u interested in psychology??
Do u think u can apply that in teaching career??
What do u think is the issue for education lately?? ( i told abt sc n m3 in eng)
Do u think bm / eng should be applied, and y??/
WhAT is the difference for u when u change from bm to English in form 6??
Do u think all students can cope with English??
What do u think abt illegal immigrent??
Should government be blamed or the public , and why??

hahax.. i answered all teh question okei ler.. was confident..
lets just see how it goes.. =)

complicated but cannot be explained YET!!

there has been lots of things happening around me lately..
can't really announce it yet cause not that certain about all of that..
after sunday, i would have some clear picture regarding some stuffs..
and YAY!!! i've got my lisence already.. but wats da use???
hahahax..
anywayz, i got teachers training interview.. its on 30th..
am getting few stuffs and need to really decide properly everything =P

simple yet tiring day

yesterday was such a LONG LONG night!!!!
and time i got up was about nearly 2 pm loh!!!
hahahx...
half the day just gone like that.. what to do..
i was very tired and needed extra lots of rest to continue the day..
had my bath all and straight had lunch.. hungry!!!!!

and then, headed to my room and went online..
nothing much also there nd then, just remembered..
tomorrow i'll be having tuition and have not prepared anything and
for wednesday's class haven't mark!! aiks..
prepared chapter one for science form 5.. planning to finish it as promised..
and then, ran through form 3 ...
others kept aside first for later on at mid-night..
while preparing the notes, listened to songs and sang as well.. =p
WHEE..
HEheheehe...

abt 8.30 went to have dinner... had dinner while watching "bones"..
and watched ncis as well..
nothing much after that, did some stuffs in facebook, chatted,
and saw some dance videos in you tube..
as well as listened to songs after that..

sunday

photo's on sunday-19/04/2009

well, its the day of dance.. went to marriaman temple abt 10.20 all.. practised dance few times over and over.. and then, had lunch there and rough rehearsal..

after that, teacher did make up for us all...

and went back home..

did my hair and amma helped me..

first time i did mostly on my own.. whee.. =)

super nice.. haha.. and then, touch up on make up, dressed up and got ready..

went again to the hall about 6.30..

for the achievement thingi to start also as late as 9.30 pm..

temple of fine arts dance was just SUPERB!!! FANTASTIC!!

and smt Sudha's students dance was nice.. and Mr Santiago's was good as well..

many achievers came like maaran, Jack nadaraj, nandu, gana, no entry, og nanba , yamuna sangeetham teacher, and many.. their achivements were really not unknown until this day..

it was really nice that mr. Sebastian to have done this =)