Nearly end of 2011~

Its definitely been sometime i've blogged. Not surprised!

Eventually 2011 is coming to an end.. Not that i just realized but its already 31st of December, early morning 1:58 a.m now and i'm awake updating my blog.

I'm think of writing what i feel 2011 gave me!

2011 was a year full of surprises, well, that's for both good and bad. Everyday we learn something, we learn from our words, behaviour, other's word, behaviour, what has happened and the list would just go on. What is life if there's no lesson learnt in the end of the day?

Main thing i've learnt id TRUST! The moment you have trust on anyone, it's like getting a baby plant and feeding it with water everyday and raising it. Once you forget to feed it (it's when the trust is misused or broken), it'll slowly dry and die. I understand that it'll take long before it builds, but the trust we have in someone is something we can never misuse. *even by mistakes*

I've also learnt that you got to wait patiently and don't rush things! If things are meant to happen, sure it will. There is no point of hanging over some unrealistic thoughts and waste life. I now feel that whatever happens has its own reasons behind and we shouldn't try to change it in a split second, which might just ruin everything else.

Little do I know about life that it makes me wonder how people act without thinking enough. To live a life is something beyond in our mere hands but to live it meaningfully would not be that hard. After all, we can only live this life, even if we're incarnated- we won't be able to remember our past lives. Why not live it! Do what you feel like doing when you still have the age. Its not like we have forever to adventure this the world. Only God knows whats going to happen tomorrow.

Yeah! It's something i just came up with. I've read somewhere that goes- live everyday like there's no another day! It would be fascinating and interesting life to live as such.

Not bad.. i do think! Okie. Moving on, I've met many people this year, who had taught me a lot! In every sense that is both good and bad. But as i was thinking life is not just about the bright side. There's always two things in life- good and bad, sun and moon, it goes together like Yin and Yang. People are interesting actually. How one thinks is interesting. Basically, i do feel that as time goes by, its not just what i feel but its the fact i suppose, that life is getting more and more advanced as well as mankind.

They literally want everything there and then. Everything's in express and instant mode. Even feelings. Not to condemn or what, but that's it. Young children not having enough love from busy parents, switch over to social network where they get friends and of course spoil, cause spending too much time there. They get gadget-friendly and that's the only thing they communicate to. Alright, i feel like I'm complaining. But that's what i see. Not because i'm turning to become a teacher and have a sudden need to bring the awareness to the new generation, but its just how it is and will be.

There's nothing that will stop it and seriously i feel so lifeless as being consistently opening the FACEBOOK and keep staring at the status- which sounds more like complaints in life and updates of what they did for the day. We update everything there that it even became a place for invitations and all. Its definitely easier with all these technologies, but we're missing the gist and touch of communication.

I just figured out something to work on. Well, its quite dumb but truth hurts yet, i would want to face it! Like it is, Life is short after all.

Moving on, owh yah, i've got new hobbies that is turning out to be going on great where my venture is deepening in photography and singing. It just makes me feel through things i do. Its nice. Teaches me persistence- especially in photography, the editing and in singing, the 'practice makes perfect' thingi.

I love my friends whom i love spending time with, just chatting through and laughing.

Growing up is tough and i'm proud to be strong and determined. Nothing's going to stand in my way.

KADAVUL

In life, you get to know many people and we adjust to them and still accept them as they are. Some would be to the extend of you adoring them. But you can never be them right? every individual have their own differences, not just a mere say but is proven scientifically. when GOD has created you with in a very unique way, then, why would he make a mistake in choosing which family you would born in and in which religion you would be.

for those who cannot accept certain facts of life, look at it in any way you want to either philosophically or scientifically. Just never ruin ones believes. or even try to.

When one person, who is mentally not stable does something, would you follow blindly? Even if the person chose that path, what gave one particular person to point out to join some other religion? those who are unstable in religion is the one who would hop around finding for the religion they want. Why do you want to cause trouble through religion? There is no greater religion than other. When one has the capability to accept that fact in his/her life, then, yes, you truly practice what your religion preach.

my parents have played a very big role in imparting knowledge about my religion to me.. Hinduism is much more than just praying to deities. It has much more deeper meanings and connotations where it'll take lots of time to figure yourself out. One is to go deeper within themselves to find the answers and solutions. understanding your own self, the reason behind why you were born and the stages in life you have to pass through. all this requires knowledge of input. There should be understanding in each and every thing you do.

Its easy for some to let go their self-respect but not the rest.

Complications? Not at all.

Often the feelings of human being are unstable and they tend to over-react. Same goes to me as well, its just because we, humans have feelings and we either react according to what our feelings at that moment is or what our mind whispers. If there is angel and demon at both sides of our shoulders, then there should be balance of both goodness and evilness in life probably. It may seem illogical to even think of it, yet no matter what life is made up of ups and downs where nobody can deny.

When there is a person, the nature would determine his/her initial growth, could be height, weight, along with basic characteristics which would eventually mix up with the nurturing and here, the environment plays a major part in determining how that particular human being is being moulded!

So, do we blame totally on the environment when a person act as the way they do? Sometimes even thought they grow up in an secured environment, i guess human after all change and act as they are supposed to as it is written in their own fate. I guess if in this birth they are supposed to meet with a number of jerks, they would and if it is also meant to lead that particular person to be influenced to a wrong path, it would just happen.

No matter how hard it may seem to bring back a drug-addict to normal, if his/her fate is meant to change, the person would have the strength and perseverance.

Well then do we just let go our lives to fate to decide? Definitely NOT! Don't get me wrong over here. what i really meant was, for example be it a small boy sitting for his school examination soon, if he focuses in his studies with no distraction, and he works real hard that he wants to achieve his aims which is to score 5 a's. And finally when he gets 4 A's and 1 b, that is when fate plays its role! We should always do our total best and then leave the rest for God to decide as it is said EFFORT + God's Grace --> SUCCESS =)

Why do actually people get so agitated with others? Be satisfied with everything you have cause there are people who don't! Frankly, from what I have learnt here, you be yourself and people would not appreciate you. Generally i guess to act your self and put on a fake mask would make the rest love you and come towards you. If that is how it is, i'd rather be myself and not get involved with anything at all. =P If you take life so seriously, how would you treat your old age? By being someone else who don't really know when was the last being sincere? Funny yet the reality is far more hard to accept. Yes we always find fault at others and do we look at ourselves?

Its hard practice what you preach, YES but do you even know your mistakes, and dark qualities. Ask me and i would say yes. I've been working on them and i'm sure i can't be perfect at all, yet i can allow myself not to repeat my mistakes as well as not to be off lane that leads me to the wrong directions. To lead you the part of righteousness, believe in yourself and don't cause ill to others.

By talking behind ones back, not only you make them a stronger person inside out, but also to move on and aim higher. Every bad thing you do, there is an invisible mirror that reflects back your bad deeds to yourself and you should wait for it to hit back on yourself.

Care and love don't require you to go keep begging and asking for it, it flows everywhere and when you shower to others, it automatically comes by. Love is everywhere and don't ever get the wrong concept of LOVE & LIFE =)

~SH@NDRA~

Changes in Life!?!?

Seriously many had happened all this while and if i look back now, merely it seems very little yet super complicated..

What am i referring to? The things around that had happened, people and their behaviour and also the examinations.

LEt me finish it off with the examination part--> where damn, who ever said language was easy and teaching is super easy?? Try it and then speak for yourself! haha.. If u arrogantly ask why should I? I have a better occupation waiting in my hands, then, why even bother commenting on others? MYOB =P haha.. just as easy as that to put it off..

Leave examination, from what i have been in in so far in learning up every bits about this profession, it has been building me from deep within..

Theory tells you to be loving and caring towards each and every child as well as be equal to all and also find in which ways you can help a bothered child, yet from my experience in being a student, let me see, not even one would at least fill those requirements! I see this career as a new path where i can open up ways for my students to realize what the world has to offer.. There's a high ambition, one can say, but how else would you find this career when god himself leads you over here????

Next, as for people, generally, they are changing nearly most of the time, and you'll be surprised to see even on how greatly people can act towards each other. Is it harmful to be true and be yourself? How bad the real you can be? the poison is way too deep till you are faking your own self? damn! Half the world lives on a pretentious life which they never belonged !

Be a person who you are proud of yourself and how you are. No matter what uphold the principles in your life, if you have one.. I believe that when you are true, it'll reflect sincerity where else, people can just be misleading..

As a human being, its just quite hard to even predict a man!! What a life we live in..

Yet, i see the real picture on so far the people around and do hope many would change for the betterment of themselves and the people around them..

there is no obstacle that you cannot overcome..

Suddenly there's quotes related with 'obstacles' coming up when i look through them.. when reading them, it just feels,

'Lord, You know Your child best and where else can i yearn for a compassionate mother like You.'

First, - Man learns through experience, and the spiritual path is full of different kinds of experiences. He will encounter many difficulties and obstacles, and they are the very experiences he needs to encourage and complete the cleansing process.

Sai Baba

And next:-

What are obstacles? They are nothing! There is no obstacle that cannot be overcome. Obstacles are like stones on the path: you walk over them or around them. Never let them upset you.

Never become involved with them in such a way that they become part of your life. Observe them and let them pass, for they do not belong to you. If obstacles continue to disturb you, offer them to the Lord and He knows why they have come into your life. The

Lord is always there to help you, if only you ask for His help.

well, since young, I've got to learn many things in my life through His messages. It is not only to think and ponder but to deeply get it stuck into the head in order not to be influenced by all the "KAAMA: in life. Its heartache to see kids that grew up with me ending up in the wrong path; to see youths brought up from good families being destroyed by lame thing called 'love'!

What do they actually perceive of love i wonder... when only left most of the time is a broken heart- leading to make wrong decisions. why getting 'love' to the wrong definition? what has love got to offer? merely LUST?

Divine, pure love is just like the love of a mother and father to the child; the love of a devotee to God; and the love of man to another man with no expectations at all!

Why take life so seriously when something ends up the way you never imagined? Look beyond and foresee new perspectives of life is what i believe in.

At time i would feel like is life being really unfair? Yet, look back when you have wonderful people all around you, your family, your siblings and your friends.. it'll seem too small to even set eyes on.

There is time set for everything.. But man's natural query triggers thoughts and makes themselves uneasy 'all the time'!!!

fun moments

After having difficulties with broadband, now that is resolved by sharing a wifi with my roomie. It's such a relieve to feel just like home.. hua hua..

As usual, since it's been long that i blogged, there's lots happened here and i don't want to recall everything again and update because other than SBE and BIG events nothing else actually i give a damn about.

Oh yah, and the flood.. and some "weird" characters of PEOPLE!

*i don't want to start cursing anyone here!

just some thoughts of wanting to travel so badly. Been stuck here since like i feel forever! This SEM is seriously a 'hit' in the head that its causing lots and lots of .. busy schedules.. so called right.

No matter what, i've been so badly wanting to go for any sai ctr activities and the only thing for now is the alumni in KL.. So many change of plans. Yet. i'm just curious what it's all about.

Other than that, i'm so waiting for May holidays!! Want to find to do something so that i'll fill my time rather than just laze around at home. Which practically i'm bored of doing so.

Since i'll be having another 3 more years, there's quite a lot i should discover before i indulge myself into anything.

Oh yah *again*.. I loved doing my SBE!!! It was so much fun that time just flew like that and it actually made me feel like i want to be a teacher.. * surprisingly*

what a month!!

Its been really long since I've updated my blog!! AGAIN!!! hahax.. What to do.. Been really busy with IPG life: more of assignments, GERKO stuffs, POnggal Stuffs..

Barely had time for myself.. Missed it!! And now, am home for enough time for my own.. At least i hope i do!

Been having really crazy and cracko weeks.. started of with ponggal- but people, it was really an awesome work done for the first activity!

Next was Philosophy and education assignment essay! DAMN!! It was just like the previous sem 1 thinking skills essay. Full of craps.. so *YUCKY* with semangat like that.. bla bla bla..

In between, that weekend went to a pre-school to do conservation task on year 4-6 years old students. They were so cute! Had quite an experience with lots of tense in head. at least got some idea of how to handle some situations.

next was coming back and rushing with the second question! still, i liked the second question essay best.. hehe

After that was TESL night preparations.. huk.. it was so exciting and all even with so many obstacles and all, yet, until that day... I don't understand how some people who are OLD and are still immature!! Sad to know that but yah, i feel pitiful towards them. Our deal is done that we all had fun as a class and we get our marks. deal over!

next was to settle TITAS assignment. this too was dragging lots of time! but safely and soundly finished and completed it with a satisfactory essay..

in between, we had to cope up with BIG meetings and final decision was to combine 6 classes for 1 session of camping which consist of about 120 people!! CRAZY!!! SIOU!!!!

I have got no word more!!

So, this was merely what had happened since the end of february up to today!

Who actually said being a teacher was so easy? haha.. so much mental torture have to be faced despite discriminations.. STILL STANDING STRONG!

wahh.. hehe

yet to anticipate:

- BM assignment

- Linguistic assignment

- SBE

- Child Dev assignment

- BIG

WEIRD PPL

Actually i had lots and lots to complain about earlier, yet, never had proper broadband line.. Damn the line.. ish..

First of all, whats like His's problem? In random, he seems to be so against me. Gawd! People are just so weird! One minute different, the other minute different! Yet, i accept it.. So, what right? We should not be agitated by people's characters and storms.

Randomly things just startle me! So, what right?

Then, here came allowance =D

Yet, i have nothing in my mind to buy.. So, shall keep it for the rainy days.. hehex..

Went to camerons highlands.. MEt all my relatives =) whee.. Nice to see them all after such a long time. In weddings nie can see all in a bunch.

So fast asking when i'm getting married!! Am still young!!!!!!! PLZ lahh.. hehe..

then, 2moro will be dinner.. hhmm.. =))

*SMILES*

LIVE LIFE WHILE YOU STILL CAN =)

Actually life has so much more to offer each and every one of us. Accept it or not, it'll keep trembling at your feet and knocking your door!

Mr Kalai told in class today so many things which are facts of life where questions which cannot be answered, yet he said everything has an answer!

which came first??

- day or night?

- chicken or egg ( the typical question)

we're not going to live this life long, so why act like you own the body and your life? - which i somehow rephrase..

Some people live like as if they have nothing else in life except their boyfriend, their phone and their lap top! Am not criticizing!! But come on, there are so much things to achieve, but not being "kiasu" wanting to be involved with everything, but yet to make this one and only life of ours as interesting as we can. By adding more fun and exploring more in life.

-Look forward for each and everyday

- Enjoy spending time with many people

- Get to know as many characters as possible - study them and their lives

- forgive and forget ; misunderstandings do occur, yet even if you're not saints at least try, cause you may not meet the person sooner or later, for whatever reason it could be

- treat everyone like you want to be treated ( its hard!!!! but am still working on it)

- do what you would/ tell what you want to soon, and do not wait or postpone it because you'll never know what would happen next, be it the person you care the most or even the least.

- no matter how far people seem to go, even if you are embarrassed, don't bother because it will only affect you at that time of the moment, as you are getting stronger facing those situations

- just because someone is ignoring you/ being bad to you, doesn't mean you have to do the same! It not only builds you inside out but brings you awareness that only the body is doing so, but there is still god in that person!

it may seem weird/awkward/ irritated, but with practice, you not only get to control the situations around you but indeed your own mind which is the hardest thing to control in the entire world!!

So, enjoy life while you still can =)

Life's actually too short to be angry, sad and to indulge in negative moments!!

PARENTS

Where will we be without them?

What would we be without them?

We won't even be here on this earth.

Ok.. It's getting real schema with dramatic words or so for..

Well, seriously at times many would be saying this and that, that they are not satisfies and all that, but do they really mean that?

Merely words, yet it hurts!

This goes both way; either parents to children and also children to parents.

Parents at this era have evolved a lot by educating themselves on how to raise their children without or more likely to say with less flaws!

Doesn't mean parents of those days don't know how to raise their children but what i mean is that parents of those days never really focus on the psychological aspect of the child's growth and the effects that happens surrounding them..

Even so, many aspects can never be avoided.. On a way, i personally like those days bringing up of children in the way that the mother is always there with the child, yet, i too doubt how efficient can that be? What if the son/daughter is too attached to the mother and totally pampered? Especially son!

Next, on these days parenting, parents can be said not having lots of time spent with children due to working hours and all. What about it you may ask.

Actually being given and provided everything but missing of the presence too isn't helping a child's development!

As moving towards adulthood, many questions pops up out of a sudden. Just so curious on how would it be when i'll be having my own children.. hhmm..

I have parents who are always willing to be there for me and grant what is always good for me. Ok! Generally all parents are like that!! Hehe..

I love some of my dad's characters and some of my moms.. So, obviously they are some sort of role models in my life..

*smiles*

=)

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#SMILES#

Just completed "Tapovanam" this morning.. It's basically like a holy book of " the life stories of Sathya Sai Baba.. "

It was to be read in a week. Starting from Thursday up to Wednesday.

So, yah.. I have finished a week, and waiting to re-read in every month! There are so many messages delivered in every chapter! (p/s: per day have to read min 2 chapter, at time more chapters are allocated)

Well, before commencing, i was thinking to myself, can i like really read finish this much pages per day??? i did take up against my thoughts and made it. I was supposed to have read it like so long ago, yet probably, there's always a suitable time allocated for you by God!

The miracles and life stories just made me look forward what will be in the next chapters..

To read it is something..

To re-read is another thing..

To actually follow and act accordingly would take time as it'll have to be drilled into the hard head!! hehe

Yet, thanks to Tapovanam, i'm now quite addicted to reading.. Its a good thing though..

Other than that, me n kiki are planning something for coming ponggal!! last year was good and want to make this year ponggal another memorable one!! =)

*keeping fingers crossed*

#SMILES#

3rd day

HHMM.. Its now the 3rd day of the week and today we went for class at 8 am.. Dr.Chow's class. And thanks to him, he scared me to the max!! Well, there's no turning back nor escape right, so, here lets face it! How tough can it be after all? Have managed lots the pass 11/2 years, yet even though its won't be the same, whats the use of positive thinking uh? So, lets leave it to go with the flow, and whats life without challenges. =)

So, there's already news on BIG, SBE , and even future posting (*possibilities*) huk..
And the recent project would be musical.. Lets wait and see whats it all about, and whats the responsibility involved.
Many seems to be excited over this sem and lets see how this sem is going to be =P
(*EXCITED!!!!!*)