If

If  you never left,
things wouldn't have been this bad.
Wish could rewind time,
as time goes by.
Difficult times,
being stuck.
Torn, ripped apart.
No further path.
Gloomy days ahead.
No where to lead.
Wish could rewind time,
as time goes by.
Waiting for a time.
A call.
From far beyond.
Enough is enough.
Had just enough.
Looking through the worst creatures created by god.
Mistake that can never be mend.
Left with no purpose in life.

Gentle breeze of hope~~

The more we age, the more we learn on life and people. As how weird you can wonder at things that is happening surrounding you. You may seem so great but where will it lead you to after life?

Live as much as you can, pray as much as you can, gain as much knowledge as you can. Develop passions and people you can share your life with.
When searching for the right one would be the best. How exactly would you know that "He is the right one"? The more you complement each other, the more suitable you are. Complement as in the character, vision, aims and goals. When the person is right, there would be encouragement and not jealousy. Being competitive is good but life is not to compete with each other on who is better than whom. It is to live together, share moments and create moments.
Meeting guys with various characteristics. Characters vary and so do they. When you know that it would not work out, you would just know it. Don't keep dwelling on it and the memories. Life has so much more to offer and to keep tracking memories would destroy future memories to be.
Not every decision we make is the right one. We make tons and tons of mistakes. Some even the ones that may cause too much. Yet, It is meant to happen and all you can do is to turn the next chapter of life. Life is not to be locked in a dark room and enclose your hopes and dreams and live accordingly to other person's wish, yet it is to support each other during hard times, lift and cheer them, and also share dreams and hopes. To have similar liking or to share the same interests would be a gift, and if it is not seen as a blessing, it would only ruin yourselves.

filled with love

In life not many are very lucky or at least consider themselves lucky...
But for me, i feel I've been lucky enough all the while..
Never had starvation; nor mislead life; or even lost home due to disasters or anything at all..

No matter how hard life seems to be at times; yeah but there are people who face worst situations.
Until that, I'm definitely grateful to God for all the good times as well as bad times I faced which made me learn and grow.

At this point, I've got so much love from my parents, relatives, and friends... 
whenever I'm down, there will always be a person to cheer me up and put a smile on me..
I am lucky in a way to have these people around me...

# When i was down at a point, there was someone for me all the while, and still is... She means so much to me and will always be. She was more like my other half.. We could just get along so well.
No matter how things go around us, distant would not matter.... 

# It wonders me how one can love without expecting it in return.. 
Sometimes, to follow heart is far way better than to follow the mind totally... Just to go all out and live the life for once =)

Not to rush

Determining moments in life is not an easy task. However you may have it well-planned, organized or sequenced, it may not just fall into its places as expected.
Who ever said falling in love was easy? You cannot push it through a person and just make it happen. it deals with two hearts. How do you/ would you know what the heart wants? Just because it beats fast, doesn't mean that is the outcome, probably its sending an alarm for danger or some instincts that this is not good.

Why does it have to be stereotyped falling in love? .. I love you... You mean everything to me... I want to make love to you...

Its human nature, I get it. Just that its so sweet in the movies/stories but in reality it gets too tacky. Its difficult to know the true intention behind love. Yeah.. How far can it get to be real love? When you are falling for someone, you should know what you are about to get in to... Maintain a stable mind and tell yourself that she/he's the one... No matter how far it takes you apart, distance would not be a big matter as the love would just be there, well, with technologies of course.

Faith and trust is very important in dealing with any relationship. But if there is no faith in love, just never jump into the conclusions...

Only indulge in something with stability in mind and not rush...

i'm not going to rush or decide right away... no matter how much i hate uncertainty, sometimes it is what gets you to think deeper and look beyond...

Just when it is an interval, another chapter barges in!!

Just when everything goes on in usual pace, with every hectic month of the sem is over, and set to rest mode, here goes the mind and heart twisting and aching in an unexpected manner. When just about to settle down and leave the rest to god to be taken care of, here comes again insecurities and doubts. Why does all happen in this way? 


Words that has been uttered may or may not be, apart from that being a part of critical stage, is it all for good? Hmph.. Thoughts just can't seem to stay put at one place. Many considerations to be made. All i hope is not to jump into any decisions... 


Now i know why time is needed so badly.. 







Dwelling and fear is something not to be anticipated.. 
Yet.. Never do something that might cause you to regret... 
Is it time yet??? 3 years seems to be so fast and just hope it'll turn out to be a joke..




To wanting it so badly is one thing...
To make it really happen is another...
To make it real is what matters...
To see it as real is what fears me most!!

As its Mother's Day, let me put my thought up...

Now that i know how lost would feel,
Fear dwells upon thoughts,
Not that have i taken into granted,
Nor am I blaming the age,
But journey in life does teach,
Who ever denies or live in denial?

Love is always portrayed in her own ways,
Still, how much more can one expect?
Never will one put aside a child will she?
No matter what you're part of her blood and flesh..

Yes Maa,
I might not be the best child of the year,
I might not be able to be an ideal child
I might not be able to keep up my best behaviour at all times
Yet, does not mean i might not have you in my mind and heart...

Happy Mothers' Day..

Lies in life teaches lessons for life!!

        Its not that astonishing to find out someone had just back stabbed you. I would say its still so high school. Yet, yeah it would hurt to finally find out the person you trust, hits your back and turns over. If the friend is that worth-it after all. Well, these few months taught me not to just a person before you really get to know them. I'm glad I've known this now and not when i'm just about to leave this institution. 

Through out my 3 years here, ( yes!! 3 years now) I've been with many many friends and even preferred to be all by myself at times, got along with few juniors, and all these are now memories. I don't know how it happens but almost everyday there is something new in life not only to expect but to venture at times. It definitely depends again at how one looks at it from what perspective. 

Art is something i look up to dearly, be it music, dance, painting, pictures or just a scribbled sky. Glaring at it, brings deep emotions out. Not to be poetic but just love the feeling that stirs from beneath. Especially when going to sea shores with beautiful sky which seems to be painted. 

Silently waves that hits the shore, while birds chirping from the corners of tress by the sea, soft white sand that hand runs through and legs that walks the path of sea shore with wet sand - is what my heart yearns. As it is always known, silence speaks deep into the soul.